What No One Told You About Taking the Leap of Faith...

A Sigh of Relief...

Well, “BACK 2 BASICS” is finally out and it feels like such a relief. You ever had butterflies AND knots in your belly at the same time!? It felt something like that for me on release day. Putting that doculesson series together challenged me in ways that I didn’t expect. But the challenge actually started LONG before the concept of B2B came to mind.

Back in 2020, a friend (and fellow drummer) told me that I was going to create something that would be a blessing to the drum community. I have to admit, when he first said that it was hard (and scary) to hear. I was swimming (*ahem* drowning let’s be real) in drool and diapers, & pregnant with my third baby on the way.

The thought of even picking up drumsticks was the furthest thing from my mind at that time, much less CREATING something from within myself that WASN’T a human. 🤣 I’ve gotten pretty good at that if I do say so myself.

A Static Place With No Fruit...

After 4 years of barely playing the drums and essentially disappearing on the drum community entirely, I had serious doubts. Questions that ran through my mind were

“Where do I even start?”

What do I have to say?”

“Do people even remember me or WANT to hear from me?”

“What do I have to offer that’s worth anything compared to (insert super successful & active drummers here)?”

These questions, insecurities and more kept me in a place of reluctance. I got good at using my children as excuses. I was really good at allowing my babies’ needs drown out the doubt and fear that was actually in the driver’s seat of my mind.

My reluctance to drum and create was completely rooted in fear and it kept me in a static place with no fruit.

Don’t get me wrong, 5 kids in 8 years is hardly “no fruit.” I’m not overlooking the incredibly hard, sacrificial, invaluable and amazing work that we do as mothers. But speaking of drums specifically? Like I said; fruitless. Looking back, the hardest part for me to reconcile is that after some time, I KNEW God was telling me to dive back in and I surrendered to my fears & “what if’s” rather than my good, good Father.

ADVICE TO MY PRESENT & FUTURE SELF: NEVER do that again. Take the leap. It might be scary, but it’s also exhilarating and liberating all at the same time. Read that one more time if you need. 😉

I get into a bit more detail in “BACK 2 BASICS” about some of those insecurities that I battled. Honestly, I STILL toss and turn some of those questions around in my head from time to time.

It’s a journey that requires intentionalism and being honest with myself every day. But I’m committed to the journey. 

Embrace & Endure...

I always said music was my "escape." It was my safe place. But what do you do when the thing you ran to, you now find yourself running from?

As artists, a lot of what we create is in an effort to either escape our own challenges, or provide a form of escape for others. That's not entirely a bad thing but I've realized from my own experience that it's way more rewarding and beneficial to embrace and endure the resistance, rather than escape it.

I lived a lot of my life believing that "hard" was bad, opposition was undesirable and resistance was a nuisance. But some of the most valuable and precious things are produced under pressure. I.e. diamonds. You don't build muscle and get the results you want in the gym by quitting your reps as soon as it gets hard.

When you feel that resistance and opposition in your workout, that's proof that you're actually doing something right and your results come from pushing through that pain, consistently and faithfully. Day in and day out. 

So What, It's Scary? Take The Leap Anyways...

Life can be so messy and I think living in this digital age of cute selfie's and highlight reels has caused us to forget that it's not just messy for me. It's messy for all of us. 

So here we are in 2025, I finally pushed through the fear, created and released "BACK 2 BASICS," and survived to say: "So what, it's scary? Take the leap of faith, my friends." You'll be so glad you did. 

Whether it's a move, a new job, going back to school, a new relationship or even just a new hobby. Take. The. Leap. Just like the top of the rollercoaster, it may seem scary at first but once you jump, a few seconds into the descent, it becomes exhilarating.

That's when the fun starts. Throw those hands in the air, close your eyes and let go. 🎢 And after you do, tell someone.

Share your story. The ups, the downs, the fears and the fun. It's about the journey, not the destination. You never know how your story might inspire and empower the next person. 🔥💪🏼

Embrace the resistance. Enjoy the ride. 

Until next time...

Love & Light ✨

Hannah